July 1st, 2002

My eyes


So last night, I watched this movie..it was good..but sad, so I cried through almost all of it. haha. well anyways after the movie I had to many mixed emotions blah...I hate it. I attempted to write a poem. umm I'm not sure what it is, kinda funny. oh well so here it goes.

I try to be happy
I try to be cool
but when I look at me
all I see is a fool

My life is a joke
nobody cares

I feel so alone
nobody to hold
nobody that would want to hold me.

I always end up hurting people
people that deserve the best
who are better then the rest

People point and laugh
and it hurts me a lot
and then I am back to feeling
that I am nothing at all

but who would care anyways?

so yep there it is....
  • Current Mood
    blah blah
My eyes

Stupid Me.....................................................

So I thought that it would be cool, just to get on-line and look up some information about the college that i want to go to. Bad idea, the only thing that I got out of it was stressing myself out and worrying about not getting into college. And since it is summer now, there is really nothing that I can do about it, so there is no reason to worry about it. though it just seems that i have only 3 years to do a lot of stuff. Oh well, nothing that I can do about it now.

So sam brought me, the cd's that she burnt for me...thankyou very much....more things to listen to on the airplane. hmm so yeah.
  • Current Music
    Beattles-Abbey Road