June 30th, 2002

My eyes


I hate being sick, I think that I am going to die soon.

should I be happy? or should I be something else? is it what I really want? or did I just go with it because it was something that was there? Why the fuck to I have to feel like this? and why couldn't I have thought about this, before it happend? What the hell, I am dumb. Maybe I should just stick with it for a while and find out if it is what I really want. FUCK FUCK FUCK.... I don't like hurting people. someone kill me.

I think that I am going to go throw up.

so I thought that I was leaving in two weeks, but it looks like I am going to be leaving a week from today. A lot sooner then I thought. EEK! Oh well, I am glad that I am going.

My sisters birthday is on thursday, along with the 4th of july, I wonder what we are going to be doing. Oh well.

So yesterday I went to the show. It was pretty lame, the bands sucked. I got to talk to Tori though, she is a pretty cool person, I enjoyed talking to her.

hmm... I think that I am going to go lay down now...
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